42 Months!

I was really hoping for this to be the month of improvement. Looks like we are still in the same spot as before. 61 days of log in dates ahead of us, and a mile of them behind us. I was reading through Beth Moore's study on Daniel, and the time of waiting for him was 42 months, turns out there are many places in the bible pointing to 3.5 years as God's time of waiting. I was really hoping that would be true for us as well. I guess God has other plans for us and our little girl. *sigh*

On a brighter note Miss Jubilee Promise is not going to have to wait any more for her family. Run on over to http://aplacecalledsimplicity.blogspot.com/
and read about their God sized miracle to this sweet girl waiting for a home. They are such an inspiring family.

Where I am today...

Not going to lie, this was a tough week. Another month with out referrals, a change in the C2A2director, and uncertainty in Ch*na adopt*on. I allowed my self to get sucked back into the negativity and fearfullness once again. Why do I allow my self to do that? I know with my whole heart that God is in control and I am not. But, I continually try to make things happen instead of trusting the Lord that he will make it happen. I saw this prayer over at Bakers Sweets, I think I am going to type it out and pray it over this stubborn head of mine until I have it firmly in there. I think this is more of a head problem than a heart one.

"Lord, I praise You for Your sovereignty over the broad events of my life and over the details. With You, nothing is accidental, nothing is incidental, and no experience is wasted. You hold in Your own power my breath of life and all my destiny. And every trial that You allow to happen is a platform on which You reveal Yourself, showing Your love and power, both to me and to others looking on." – Author Unknown